Sick

So my being sick was…

Denying – I will not get sick, I can not get sick, I do not get sick, I am not sick, I will take some extra vitamins but am not sick, I have a little scratchy throat but will be fine tomorrow, I can still work while I cough and hack…

Ignoring - I am just going to keep my appointments because I have too much riding on my involvement, I will get going early tomorrow and do some extra meditation, I can do anything I set my mind to do…

Catching – I feel terrible, I ache everywhere, my throat is screaming sore, I can hardly breathe, my head is ready to explode…

Succumbing – I am sick, I can’t do anything on my schedule – in fact I can’t do much of anything, I will cancel my work schedule and call the doctor…

Suffering - I can do little more than sit, cough, blow, and spit, can I find the truth of life in this suffering – no, I can’t even think…

Nothing – sleep, silence, warmth, no physical, no mental, no emotional - the doing of nothing is the now of my existence – keep moving is now not moving…

Meaning – I can learn from this low, sickness is part of life’s balance; I have had little balance as of late, my level of stress is extreme, I don’t sleep near enough; my long term health is a commitment to my family…

Understanding – I find a simple idea or action to be exciting and valuable again, life is an adventure race and should be well planned, focusing on the long range goal, and allowing a slower pace to take in and enjoy life’s extraordinary views, meeting people and discovering new places while learning about myself…

Moving beyond – I make mistakes and will again, the polarity of this life will test me again, however, I will pray (and act) with more balance along the way.